. . . a glimpse into my heart.

Two days ago I told myself, "Tuesday is the day!" And here I am, spring cleaning. Liam was sick over Christmas break, Dave has been fighting something for numerous weeks and Gabriel has been sick with an off and on fever and cough for a week now. I felt the need to clean! I disinfected doorknobs and light switches in hopes to get rid of the spread. I'm praying God will guard my body from catching whatever this nasty stuff is. Judah is quite lucky to have a impenetrable immune system.  I sprayed down the shower with my Dawn and white vinegar mixture and let it set for a couple hours before scrubbing it down and rinsing it. I also scrubbed the shower curtain and hung it to dry outside since we're at a Whopping 50 degrees and I can see blue sky for the first time in I don't know how long!! Always nice to have a fresh shower curtain. :-) I also tackled the office which has yet to be finished. I love being orga...

As some of you might have sensed, I have gotten a little frustrated with Facebook. Ever since the election in November my news feed has been flooded with everyone's opinion of what should happen and their fears about what's to come. There's so much hate and anger and a lot of very ungodly talk and name calling, a lot of which is coming from those who claim to be Christ-followers. My heart grieves over the attitudes and lack of trust in our all mighty God that I've seen over taking Facebook. Whether or not I agree with any of their opinions is not the issue. . . It's the lack of love towards others that saddens me. I came too close too many times to posting my own statuses to scold people but knew it would do no good and only get myself drug across the coals. So, I have taken a step back. . . .its time to recall the real purpose of Facebook for myself. It's an easy place to vent and share what's going on in my day. I found many times my statuses were post...

A couple of years ago I was chatting with a dear friend about something that God had put on both our hearts.  Discussed how we felt like we had gotten somewhat colder and callused to things that used to bring tears to our eyes. Specifically, we were talking about past opportunities we'd gotten to go to other less fortunate places and serve in ways that changed us and broke our hearts for things that break God's heart. But at this point in our lives, being busy mothers and wives, we just felt disconnected from so many things we used to be passionate about. We discussed what it would look like for us to leave our families behind and take a trip out of the US to rediscover the things that once caused us heartache. I know, you might be says, "Why would you want to do that to yourself? Who wants to bring on heartache on purpose?" well, it's a much easier life to be cold and callused towards things that are so far away, in other countries and things we feel we couldn...

In February of 2011  Dave and I went to a 3 day counseling intensive. It was life changing. I often go back to the notebook where Kathy took notes during our sessions.  Her  and her husband Keith are such wise people and brought things to our attention we wouldn't have seen otherwise. Today I needed to go back and reread some things she said about me that really opened my eyes to the struggles I have in my life. These are struggles that have weighed on me  since I was fairly young and I never understood. But Kathy spoke so clearly to my heart that day.  I hate sin. But I understand those who don't know Christ as their savior don't have a reason to deal with sin and stop. On the flip side, I hate seeing my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ play with sin and live in it like it's not a big deal. I have frequently spoken truth into someones life and in return gotten called names and lost relationships. I always wondered if I should have ...