. . . a glimpse into my heart.

As someone who's worked in youth ministry for over 7 years I've seen a lot. I think the hardest thing for me to deal with is when these young people leave our high school youth group to move onto college and within their first year of college they become someone I can't recognize. I don't know what the problem is. Are there too many high school students just hanging onto what their parents teach because it's expected and easy? Then college life comes along and there's a world they have never seen before. What goes through their minds when they start talking and acting in ways that they never did the 18 years before this day? I know my place is to come along side of them when I can as high school students and try to teach what I know. Then it's their choice after that. Somehow I feel responsible though. . . it's hard to let go.

Today Liam and I went shopping today and to finish it off we went to Starbucks and Liam played with his new toy while I sat and worked on my Bible study homework. At one point Liam asked if i was reading my Bible and why. I told him how it was full of stories about Jesus and that reading it helps us to learn about God and we can grow in our friendship with him. He started asking questions about where Jesus and God were. I thought it was apropriate to talk about the trinity since he had heard that Jesus is in heaven but the "God is with us". He needed an explanation. So when I told him about the Holy Spirit living in us he got excited and said, "God lives in me?!" I told him that He 'can' and that he lives in mommy and daddy. I shared about how we need to believe that Jesus died for our sins and that the Holy Spirit will live in us after we believe and know we need him to save us. He was intrigued. Then the conversation took a funny turn when he asked if God ...

So, this morning I venured out for the first time to Ladies study with all 3 boys. Once I finally got the boys settled into he nursery with the other kids (which involved some crying and Judah escaping and trying to leave the building once)it was nice to have a little time to hang with the ladies. After study some of us went to lunch together which involved a few break downs from each of my boys. I long to do these things with my girl friends but it was kind of over whelming. I hope that it will get easier as I get more used to being a mther to 3 but who knows. Once we got home Judah had another break down after hurting Liam. Getting them own for naps was a little stressful but I got it done. Then a high school girl came over to help me clean and we got so much done. The living room is vacuumed, the floors are swept and mopped. We cleaned the windows, the bathroom, the blinds. It felt so good to get things done and I am excited for more spring cleaning to come.

and Liam is sick today. :-( I hd high hopes of walking the boys to the park today since it's getting so nice outside but Liam is sick. Poor kiddo. He woke at 1AM scared after having a dream about giant meatballs attacking people. (He's been watching "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs") He was sweating and super hot to the touch. So, he slept the rest of the night on the floor next to our bed. Now, he's bundled up on the couch saying he's cold although still warm to touch. He doesn't want to eat and won't let himself sleep because he doesn't want to open his eyes after the bad dream last night. As a mother these moments are tough. He says he needs nothing but I want to DO something for him. I am sure he gets irritated with me and just wants to be left alone. I just want to fix this for him but I can't. Anyway, I guess I am a little disappointed that we won't be visiting the park today. Chances are one of the other boys will get this next so ...